Thursday 27 August 2015

03.08 - 25.08

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Have been thinking about textures and the hellishness of the small and minute.  How from the right angle and with the correct amplification I am able to distort the ordinary into something larger and more epic.  A summary of all the things I can't put into words but which are always present.  The intuitive recognition I feel for a wordless thing that chews on us all.  It's not about death, but what is around and beyond and within life.  The Always Enemy.  The Clutch.


The Clutch will leave our bones strewn across the pavements, crunching them into scrunches.  Making us into the fixity of concrete.  Happy graze.

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Went out for a day trip with my relatively new friend, Timothy.  Took some charcoal and drew some pictures.  Here are my best two pictures.  They look much better in digital form.  Less smudgy.


Instead of making landscapes my idea was to focus in one on very small aspect of the ground, find something horrible and gross in the shapes I see and somehow extrapolate that out of the image.  It is arguable as to how successful this was.  I really like the first image.

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Facebook is an interesting tool for communication and self marketing.  The person that I need to market myself to the most (arguably) is myself.  Social media is a fact of life these days and a tool but also something which has become ingrained in ourselves.. almost like a body organ, in the same way that your house keys are.. or how people who drive are in effect cyborgs when they are inside their car.  Somehow it becomes part of your living mechanism.

So if you have the same profile picture and background too long, I feel that part of you starts to degrade and become predictable.  In order to reinforce and develop your statement of yourself to yourself (and to everyone else) I need to develop myself through updating and experimenting with facebook profile pictures/layouts.



This one is meant to have a Lovecraftian feel to it.  Or like a BBC 1980s adaptation of a Lovecraft story.  But at the same time it shows my propensity for self satire.  I don't care much whether I am good looking on Facebook... in fact I hope I am the opposite.. though I'm probably not.

The above is can essentially be summarized as "I like changing my facebook profile picture"

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Much pattern designing and money saving being done on my time off work.  Though it is easier to save money whilst I am at work... but not easier to pattern design.



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Sent this to my friend Ana as an early birthday present.  As I learn more and more photoshop collage tricks then the whole need to spend money on someone's birthday is becoming less and less worthwhile.  At least an unwanted jpeg is not going to create any clutter.

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Fun with felt tips and a visit back to Doncaster:





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I always look back on my large scale gallery sized installation and wonder if I will ever get the opportunity to make anything so immersive again... also if I can make that in a location where more people will see it.  I am glad that I didn't waste my first solo exhibition on an opportunity to show some pictures and that I tried to do something different, tiring and ambitious... though the problem may be that I just didn't have the right location/marketing to really make much of my ambition.  Is it wrong and dirty for an artist to admit they want to be successful?  In this ironic age wherein we all stand around toothlessly acting as if we are not interested in recognition?  When any arrogant statement has to somehow have an undercurrent of humour.  Is that really self awareness?  Or is it self containment?  Embarrassment?

On a less embarrassing note here are some close ups of pattern designs I'm quite pleased with:






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Another new profile picture....  seems like I need to reinvent myself very quickly.. I must stagnate very quickly too.  Judging by the smell I think that is an accurate statement:



This one is based on old classic sci fi book covers.  Also the cheapness of old paperbook covers and novelizations from the 70s and 80s.

Found this gem whilst researching this:


Also as an aside note, a product with one of my patterns on it is mentioned in this blog.

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Due to my vast amount of annual leave I've started to feel the part time freedom that an artist should have and have been able to have plenty of time to get everything done without feeling any stress.  So I've been stressing about other things instead.. like having to go out clubbing for a friend's birthday.  It was okay though and quite a pleasant evening (ish).  

The highlight of the evening was taking this photograph.

David Lynch meets Tron.

Here are three more photos from during the week.

The first being a close up of some plant growth... the second being a small doll that used to belong to Noel Fielding but has somehow found it's way into my flat... and the third being my previously cream blazer that I have dyed a lilac colour because I have 3 cream blazers already.
Finally here is a picture of me and my best friend Claude.  He is enjoying his cuddles as usual.  I think he is enjoying them anyway.  I don't have my picture taken with him very often so think this is a good one to share.   Also it shows off my new lilac jacket.





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My last two days off.  I wrote myself such a large to do list.  When I don't get enough done I don't feel as if I am fulfilling my potential.  I always feel like there is so much more for me to do.  That I am lazy and underachieving.  Maybe it;s because I don't live up to my ambitions.. or my ambitions are impossible.  So I slacked off the entire to do list.. except for making a picture.



Even though I've done a lot of pattern designing and selling of work etc this year this is the first image I've made on canvas.  I was planning to make larger work again when I am 35.  Using new printing methods and working towards a new stage of collaging.  This was a slight dabbling in that.  The idea is to be able to build up images faster using pre aligned patterns/images.  Make them less of an abstract gloop and more of a directional architectural location.

Oh... almost forgot.  Another noteworthy thing happened.  I sold one of my abstract gloop images from back in 2012... one that I never imagined I would ever sell.  This one:


Somehow it looks a lot better than I remember it looking.  Though I'm glad it's not living behind my furniture anymore.  Here is a blog entry on this picture if you want to read about it.

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